And the search continues.....

So the last few weeks we have been searching for a caregiver for Wesley. When he turns 13 daycare's in the state of Florida will not take children over 13. I get that in a normal situation. But this is not the norm. None the less, I am not going to be able to change the law in Florida.

I was so excited, I placed an ad on www.care.com. I got so many responses. Everyone was so nice, I thought how in the world am I going to pick. Well then it came to the in person interviews. NOT ONE SINGLE PERSON has showed for their interview. I had one set for everyday this week and they have all either no showed with no explanation, found other positions (I understand) or cancelled.

I begin to wonder am a too honest on the phone with them that I scare them away! I have always told anyone who cares for Wesley the GOOD, BAD, AND THE UGLY. (see Trish it keeps coming up) I don't want them in over their heads. I want them to love him and care for him for everything he is. EVERYTHING! So I leave nothing out! I don't want Wesley to feel unloved or afraid if this person is not the right fit.

Then I start wondering...WOW...this really is a big responsibility. I don't think it is because its all I have ever known. Taking care of a special needs child really is hard and it requires someone special to do this job. What no one knows is.....It's not that overwhelming. My best friend said to me today, "I would rather watch Wesley then my own kids". Not that she doesn't love her kids.But she knows him. If these caregivers would just give him a chance rather than just hearing the words "Down syndrome".

So the search continues and we have do have an "Ace in our Pockets" and we meet her this weekend. I pray she is the right one. Who knows maybe all this happened to show me that my "Ace" is actually an "Angel".

Happy 30th Birthday

Yesterday was my 30th birthday. I wanted to Kareoke.....I have never done that a day in my life. So being it was the big 3 0.  I thought it was the perfect time. Well my family and friends put together a party at the house.....that included Kareoke!! We had a blast. The best part was I was surrounded by family and friends as I "performed" "Bitch" by Meredith Brooks. One of my all time favorites. I am sure I was terrible. But when I was all done. Wesley yelled...."Good Job" and gave me a thumbs up. He was so proud of his mom! For a moment the tables turned and he was cheering me on! I wish we would have gotten that on video! He also sang for us.....He is a born ROCK STAR!!!! You put a microphone in his hand and he goes to town!!!!!

I also "performed" Wonder by Natalie Merchant. This song was one of my favorites when I was younger and after I had Wesley it really hit home for me. Its such a wonderful song. I could bearly get through the song without breaking down. If you haven't heard this song before you should listen to it!!